I have four beautiful daughters now, but before I had them, I had two miscarriages. It was years ago, but I remember the profound sadness and darkness of those years. I remember leaving the hospital and wishing that I had something (a lock of hair or a picture or a footprint… something concrete) left of those babies.
I know that the only thing harder than having children is not having them.
Even though the memories are sad, it is important for me to remember my experience. The love I felt was stronger than the sadness. There was still hope. Love wins.
I first heard of Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep when my friend’s daughter was stillborn. She shared the pictures of her sweet daughter with me. I could see how much those pictures meant to her.
When I started photographing for NILMDTS, I was nervous. I wasn’t sure how I would handle the sadness. There is sadness and tragedy, but the bottom line is always LOVE. These little angels are loved. Their families want to remember, and the pictures we take can help fill an empty place in a sad heart. What a privilege it is to be part of that!
I am a NILMDTS volunteer photographer because of LOVE! I know how much I love my babies, and I honor them each time I help another family. Love wins when we lift others up. Love wins when we remember.