Blair was an unexpected pregnancy. Our son was only about a year and a half old and we weren’t trying for another baby. It totally caught us by surprise! We were very excited once the shock wore off and before even getting to the 20 week scan, I just knew she was a girl. My pregnancy with Blair was a lot harder than the one with my son Wyatt. I was nauseous and sick all the time, and I definitely didn’t feel like I was glowing, reinforcing my intuition that Blair was a girl.

My son, Wyatt, was a big baby and came 10 days early, so we expected the same for Blair. On November 17th, a little after midnight, my water broke (just like it did with my son), and I had no noticeable contractions. We called the on-call midwife and made the decision we would sleep at home that night, then head to the hospital in the morning after dropping Wyatt off at daycare.

My husband went back to sleep; I went to the couch where Blair and I watched “Call the Midwife” till around 3 am. That was our insomnia pregnancy show. At 3:30 am I felt a weird movement from her I have never felt before. It meant nothing to me then, but looking back, I think that was the last time I ever felt her move.

That morning at triage, my mind was elsewhere. …